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So yesterday I left my cell phone in my car. Didn't really care or notice that I was phoneless all day & night. Get up this morning 11 missed calls. One of my adopted kids landed in jail last night. Oh joy... He knew it was gonna happen but still :/ also have like 3 voicemails and 14 notifications. I felt loved when I looked at it. lol. Other news went to the Dr. this morning and got good news. With my weight loss I am no longer in danger of type 2 diabetes. Here's me now!

I also did something to my back so have meds for that until inflammation goes down. I also asked for a script of birth control. No more wondering every month if this is the month I'll get the double lines. In some ways I am happy about it but in others I am very depressed I want another child soooo bad yet feel like I will never have one. sigh. I am starting to love my haircut

My puppies are getting so big. At less than two weeks old they are trying to walk and sometimes succeeding AND their eyes are opening!! I love them all and wish we could keep them. But might be able to convince him to keep two!

And here is my lil man. His behavior at school is worsening. I really don't know what to do. I will not put him on meds I refuse. But he's not listening, won't stay in his seat, talking, disrespectful, etc...

Love Always, Nickie me and my baby

Called in Sick

Did not ever go to sleep last night. My back was insane and then this morning at about 5 am became extremely nasuous. I gave in and vomitted about 9. Called the boss and said try to find someone for me. He called back in less than 20 and had found someone. I was sick til about noon. Spent the whole day cleaning and it still doesn't really look like Jake and I did anything even though we did. 2 of our puppies are trying walk and they are 1 week and 3 days old. Thier eyes aren't even open yet... insane! I really wish life came with a manual. Have to turn in paperwork tomorrow otherwise I won't be eligable for help since I'm laif off. ERG! I need to be more organized. Right now I'm just kind of rambling b/c I am exsausted and am staying up to watch walking dead with baby. Is there any particular reason why my blog won't let me add photo? it keeps saying bad request. It's kind of annoying actually. Ok new subject. So i collect teas. I buy about 2 a month but can never find the ones I'm looking for when I want them. So I have decided I want a tea shelf put up in the kitchen. I want it to have a mug loop screwed in under neath so I have a special tea cup I use and then all my teas arranged on top. I wonder how long it will be before I put it up or get steve to put it up. Ok this is all the steam I have. Good night sleep tight don't let the bed bugs bite <3 Love Always, Nickie

INSANITY!

So got laid off October 31st and spent the week binging with friends. Not binge in the way you think but since I never drink drinking 2 times in a week is a lot to me plus I had 2 girlfriends over for like 4 days. Our "adventures" were dubbed Ghetto Ambitonz! It was interesting to say the least. Depression did set in and I gained 7 lbs in less than 2 weeks. I wanted to cry. Plus the check engine light is on in the van now. Apparently a vaccuum hose leak. Sigh. Finally got bridge card today. We've been skrimping on food for like a week now. It gets very interesting. My emotions have been off the wall. I wish I could sleep.... That is like a thing of the past. It takes for ever to fall asleep and if I fall asleep I wake up every hour. WAHHH! Worked at dollar tree yesterday and was on my feet for 8.5 hours and I have to do it again today but my back is KILLING me. From my neck all the way down to my left knee. I want to cut it all off. so much stuff going on ugh Love Always, Nickie

This Past Week

Sometimes I really hate having to log in and then log out and then log back in to upload pictures b/c I can't use my google email as email for blogger. It gets irritating but oh well.

Last week was a rough one for my family. Jake was once again in trouble for 1/2 the week but towards the end started behaving. He went to his grandma's house on Saturday and went to pumpkin patch. Sidenote :Kind of irritated my parents made me do ALL the driving when they know we are struggling to make it and they are more than well off. Next time they want to see him THEY can do all the driving. Wwhich they hate b/c they feel a 45 minute drive is TOO far to see thier grandchildm yet they'll drive 2.5 hours to see my grandma. It's whatever.

My psych doctor prescribed me a sleeping med b/c I don't sleep and when I do it's for about an hour at a time. She prescibed seriquil I HATE IT!!!!! So I quit taking it since it was just for sleep. Let me tell you the 3 weeks I took it my body got soo used to it that I could NOT sleep last week AT ALL. I think I got on average MAYBE 2 hours a night & the sleep I did get I woke up every 15 minutes. So that did not help my attitude. Then the seriquil felt like it knocked out my bi polar med so i was a complete BITCH. Caused a fight or 10 with Steve to the point once again I threatened to leave yet as much as I try to blame him I know in hindsight it's me and my mouth and actions that cause the fights. The first month of meds were GREAT, I felt normal. There was no insane crazy fighting. We were getting along great! Now I'm hoping this week since I haven't taken the sleeping med for a week that my normal meds will kick in correctly again. I also HATE the fact my psych doctor is only in for like 3 hours on a Thursday, that is NOT enough time to actually take care of your patients that you put on dangerous meds. Seriquil is a HIGHLY dangerous sleeping aid that is known to cause and prevoke violence, which I told her was NOT a good med for me yet she prescribed it anyway. It kind of made me think she gets a "reward" for every prescription she writes for it. Some drug companies do that with doctors, I know because I've seen it. So I will be bringing it up to her next time I see her.

Always, Nickie

Flat Tire

Yesterday just was not a good day to start. It actually didn't get better until the second half of my day. Yesterday morning started out with me going to pick up Peaches from the vet after getting spayed. When I got home it was just UGH! Jake throwing away breakfast Steve discussing it with him and me getting upset b/c I hate aytime Jake gets in trouble ( can you see how he would get spoiled?). So that started an arguement with Steve. Our arguements are never nice or pretty and I'll leave it at that. We have come along way and only fight occasionally but everytime we do it's upsetting to us both. So around 11:30 I FINALLY decided to go into work. I should've been there around 8:30. HA! Get on highway get 7 miles away from the house and 3 miles away from work and POP! Rumble Rumble Rumble GREATTTTT flat tire. Now mind you my spare tire is sitting on my front porch ( great place for it isn't it?). I didn't even stress. Figured I'd call tow truck have them tow van to the house so I can change spare. No big deal. Mind made up I get out and start walking; did I mention my cell phone was dead? I walk for about 10 minutes when Michigan State Curtesy van pulls up and takes me home ( I LOVE THE MDOT project they help out EVERYBODY who is stranded on freeways). I get home call my dad just to see if I have to waste a tow ( i get them through the road side assistance program through All State) he says use the tow. I grumble. Then realize TIRE IS WITH ME... I AM 7 MILES AWAY FROM VAN. Still don't freak. I call Steve's mom she comes and gets me and the tire. I go sit at the van realize I have jack and tire lock in the back of van. I start to change my own tire ( yea I'm that awesome) and MDOT pulls up AGAIN and this time they change my tire for me. So during all this wait time... It's just me and Steve. I love this time together we get to spend every once in a while. We watched movies, worked on un clogging the kitchen sink ( 29$ later and it still barely moves water), dried some spices and just did around the house things with some bouncy bounce added in sporadically HEHEHEHEHE Yea buddy ;) Love Always, Nickie