Right Now

So many things have happened I dont even know where to start. There's still secrets I have to keep and I will due to promises I've made. Dave is still in jail with no chance of getting out anytime soon. Which is good cuz when he's out... I'm a dead woman for many many reasons. I've had a lot of things happen so far this year. I moved home to my parents for a while to finish college. Hoping to be done with that by Dec. 2010. After than my life will be all up the air b/c there are ultimatiums and decisions that need to be made. I've given warning so nobody should be surprised when I possibly make life altering decisions again. I hate falling asleep early and waking up at 1:30 and not being able to fall back asleep. Do people deserve second or third chances? Who gets to decide when enough is enough? Is love enough to get through life on? What about if you know its gonna be hard? Do you take the chance and hope for the best>? so many questions and nobody has the answers...What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive


Love Always,Nickie

I'm Back

I haven't been online in sooo long. I've had my laptop back for 6 hours and have already reaquainted myself with most of my websites and forums. It felt so good to just be able to get online and go. I've made some big decisions this year. Biggest one is i'm moving home to finish college. and then jake will also be going to livonia school district and I'm gonna finish college. Also his dad has been helping out with jake. Jake now has 4 siblings from tony. 3 sisters and a lil brother. We won't go into how i feel about that, its not as bad as all that just ehh. Dave's back in jail n hopefully he'll just leavve me alone since he's taken to calling my parents house and cells and just anyone who he thinks will talk to me for him n it won't happen. they're all blocking him. But everything is going great in my life. Ive got a great job i love it i play with daimonds all day everyday. Jakes doing great. Zachs coming home soon and my whole family will be back together soon
Love Always,
Nickie