Thanksgiving...

So this whole holiday season whatever choice I've made for my family my mom makes the opposite. I told her we were gong into Ohio for Thanksgiving to see my grandma and family. She says she's staying home so Zach isn't by himself ( my brother). I'm cool with that. Then with van issues we can't take the trip 2.5hours away so we say we're staying home. My mom says okay well we're going into gram's I said okay cool. We got all excited to do our own traditions for the first time. My brother facebooks asking why I'm not going. Apparently only reason my bother was going into Ohio was so nobody picked on me and Steve ( none of my family has met him and with the way my mom runs her mouth they hate him without meeting him) so since we weren't going he didn't really want to go. His girlfriend works that day yadda yadda. So I tell my brother bail on grandma's (horrible yes I know but my family is DRAMA) and he's like I'll think about it. He walks downstairs at my parents house ( he still lives there) and announces he going to my house for dinner and is skipping Gram's. SOooooooooooooooo my mom calls me AND has my dad call me and they guilt trip me by saying since neither kid was going to gram's they wanted dinner there. We're like wait we're excited blah blah and they just badger me into feeling bad b/c they want to spend time together but only on their terms. I offer to have them come here. Nope, ask if we can bring puppies ( 14 hours away from them is too long) nope. Sigh. So since we wanted to cook they were talking about having us bring our own turkey and cook it there. Again time constraints. So finally I agree. then get off phone. I end up calling back saying we just couldn't do it. Would have thought I told my dad they had no more Sunday afternoon football..... Sooo come up with ANOTHER alternative. They buy own turkey and start cooking it so we don't have to be over there butt fuck early and they can still see us. I really wanted to do my own thing for the holiday but family wins out everytime. That's what this time of year is about. Maybe one day we'll get to do our own thing. On top of that I am apparently failing on not being depressed about having a job. I am eating everything in site and have demolished ALL the progress I was making. But I'm still trying to keep positive attitude ;/ Love Always, Nickie