Quotes

"When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams."

" If you love something let it go, if it comes back to you, it's yours forever. If it doesn't then it was never meant to be"

"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we're really not that different, me and you."

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.

" The Beauty is in the attempt."

Love Always,
Nickie

Catching Up

Ok so here's me catching up on my life. I did end up telling him I love him and it didn't go too bad... I got good news from all the places I had to go to last week so everything is good on the home front :) I am massivly sick and hate being so~ Jake is CrAzY but that is nothing new. He got an official big boy bike last weekend for Grandma's house and may be getting another big boy bike in a few weeks for here but until then is using his big wheel since the dog ate his bike 2 summers ago... I've realized that some things i thought were completely false and people from the past should stay in the past for a reason n i'll leave it at that. Gracey is getting big and she is like a miniture dog we all love her to death <3>

I Thank my stars every night for the life I have right now



Love Always,
Nickie

Me and people in my life March 2009

Love Always,
Nickie

Going To My Mommy's

Tomorrow we are going to my mom's house. This will be the first time that steve has gone with me to my mom's house. I'm gonna be doing laundry and steve is i guess helping jake with his new bike and training wheels and then we're all having dinner. I'm crossing my fingers for a great day and i'm trying to figure out things in my head. I know they are there but do i really wanna go down this road knowing it's not the same for him? Do i really wanna do one of the things he warned me not to? Love Always,
Nickie

betrayed.... random poems i found online that says how i feel

This poem expresses what happens when a guy and girl friendship has to come to an end and proves that old saying "guys and girls cant be just friends"
Sunshine
© Kahlen
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Who would have thought we'd be best friends?
Who would have known on you I could depend?
Who could have saw it would end so fast?
Now our strong bond remains in the past.
You were there for me as long as it worked for you.
I never realized how much I depended on you.
You've gotten lost in someone who is not worth your time.
I guess along the way I forgot you weren't "mine".
Now the person I thought you were has left my sight...
I swear, I tried so hard to keep us strong, I held with all my might.
When I finally got the nerve to tell you how it made me feel,
you tried to keep your heart from seeing it was real.
You let me walk out of your life and you didn't even know.
I think inside you had convinced yourself I'd never go,
Everyone always says guys and girls can’t be just friends anymore.
We always used to laugh it off; I guess in our hearts we thought we were so sure...
Yet here I am, saying goodbye.
I gave it my all, I had to try,
and though I'm still around and you see me every now and again
soon you'll see... you've lost your best friend.

The hardest part of any friendship is when it's time to say goodbye. As much as we might like things to stay the same, change is an inevitable part of life.

A thousand times you said you care
A million times you tell you’ll be there
A hundred times you said you loved me
But a billion times you left me nowhere.

I trusted in you with my eyes closed
Being with you was dancing in the sky
Sharing with you was laughing all time
Keeping you close was happiness in my heart
But without you I’m nowhere

I don’t know if you really deeply care
Now I just see fake smiles, broken hearts
I lost your hand in the middle of my way
I can’t find the way out in this dark empty space

I’ve lost almost the best people I’ve had
Continue with you is just being disappointed once again
Like the old times when I was just a ghost for you
The way I always felt, hiding by your invisibility cloak

I just wish I won’t exist
So you can continue your life without thinking of me
I just wish I could disappear
And no more problems with me

Hating to left you
You were absolutely the best
But other people deserve you more
And you actually love her more

So goodbye, it was my pleasure
You were a good friend this time
But as life comes on people always
Run out of your lives, goodbye.
Love Always,
Nickie