All About Us & How We're Doing

Well first off, I am back with Steve. We've been together for 6 months now after 2 years of separation. I feel we both needed to grow up a little bit but now we are extremely happy with the way things are going. We know we're going to get married but not for a while yet. We've set a 1 year minimum of being together before engaged and then at least a year of engagement before the wedding but we know what we want. We rent a small house in Warren. It's small but it works. We're hoping to purchase a foreclosed house sometime next year and work on it while we're still renting until we have the house we want. We also are starting our own business online. It's a resale thrift store but we also offer homemade food made to order just for you as well as focusing on finding little treasures that people were going to throw away. Hence the store name of Simple Treasures Lost and Found. It's taking a while to get it off thew ground but we are working with very limited capital.
Now as for my little man Jacob. He's doing REALLY good. We home school him with the un-schooling method. It's becoming increasing popular. He enjoys it and loves the field trips and hands on things that we do with him. as well as teaching him at his own pace and giving him the added attention he needs in certain areas. He's made plenty of friends in the neigborhood. His 7th birthday is coming up soon and we're still debating if he's going to have a family only party or not yet. I guess it just depends on $$$$ lol.
We got Trey this past March and his the most annoying dog EVER!!! We keep trying with him but he has such dominence issues and territory issues he spends most of his days on a chain ( we tried the caging method, he broke the plastic cage 4 times and I can't afford the metal cages) so now we do the cage method with a leash instead. He does fine as long as he's on his leash or has very little freedom. It's weird.
I got Lucifer a.k.a Lucy when she's behaving the end of May. Absolutly the most adorable cat. I got her at 3 weeks old. Now she thinks she rules the house but that changed when we got Peaches.
Peaches chose us after we got to our new house. She followed us home one day and we decided to keep her. She is the most mellow tempered cat. Her and Trey don't get along to well but after the initial dominence issues between the two girl both cats now get along great :)

Love Always, Nickie

Starting Over

I'm going to have 3 quick posts to get my blog all nice and pretty. If you want to know my past look in my archive. I don't want to delete it because it's my past but I also respect my boyfriend and don't want any of that drama in our current relationship
Love Always, Nickie

Right Now

So many things have happened I dont even know where to start. There's still secrets I have to keep and I will due to promises I've made. Dave is still in jail with no chance of getting out anytime soon. Which is good cuz when he's out... I'm a dead woman for many many reasons. I've had a lot of things happen so far this year. I moved home to my parents for a while to finish college. Hoping to be done with that by Dec. 2010. After than my life will be all up the air b/c there are ultimatiums and decisions that need to be made. I've given warning so nobody should be surprised when I possibly make life altering decisions again. I hate falling asleep early and waking up at 1:30 and not being able to fall back asleep. Do people deserve second or third chances? Who gets to decide when enough is enough? Is love enough to get through life on? What about if you know its gonna be hard? Do you take the chance and hope for the best>? so many questions and nobody has the answers...What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive


Love Always,Nickie

I'm Back

I haven't been online in sooo long. I've had my laptop back for 6 hours and have already reaquainted myself with most of my websites and forums. It felt so good to just be able to get online and go. I've made some big decisions this year. Biggest one is i'm moving home to finish college. and then jake will also be going to livonia school district and I'm gonna finish college. Also his dad has been helping out with jake. Jake now has 4 siblings from tony. 3 sisters and a lil brother. We won't go into how i feel about that, its not as bad as all that just ehh. Dave's back in jail n hopefully he'll just leavve me alone since he's taken to calling my parents house and cells and just anyone who he thinks will talk to me for him n it won't happen. they're all blocking him. But everything is going great in my life. Ive got a great job i love it i play with daimonds all day everyday. Jakes doing great. Zachs coming home soon and my whole family will be back together soon
Love Always,
Nickie

Still alive

I have slowly been picking up the peices of steve leaving. I have also had to say my final goodbyes to Dave I guess. He was the one who said he wanted to stay friends and that lasted for three days and then he stopped picking up the phone for me and deleted me from his myspace so whatever. I'm done with the childish bullshit. I am done playing the games I am going to be me and be who I am and if they don't like it to fucking bad. I never feel right when I pretend to be someone I'm not. Yes I am a single mom. Yes i still put a lot of faith in my friends. My friends are like family to me and if you don't like that to damn bad. I love being the center of attention. I mostly hang out with guys, but i am getting a few "girlfriends" too. I am a flirt. Deal with it or leave. My family is super important to me. I can yell rant and rave about them all I want. You'd better never say a word against them. We are extremely close. Insanly close almost...But we like it that way and will always be like that.

I have started hanging out with my girl Jess... the past is the past and that's where it will stayt as far as old shit. I am talking to my son's biological father and he wants to be in Jake's life and I see no reason for him not to be. I am also over the "babysitter" bullshit. It no longer matters.

Even people's lives who seem perfect, aren't. Nobody is always happy... that's why happiness isn't everything being perfect, it's looking PAST the imperfections. So i need to quit comparing my life to everybody else's. I have the only thing in the world that matters to me and that is Jacob Anthony 12-09-04. <3 I may not be the best mother in the world and I'll admit i've made mistakes but hey he knows i love him and i try the best i can to make sure he's happy.

Love Always,
Nickie