Getting irritated

I feel I've been really patient with Tony when it comes to child support. I've left him alone about being in so much debt, I don't care that he doesn't see Jake. I just leave him alone I don't ask for anything I don't threaten to put him in jail or anything like that. I feel I've been extremely understanding about him abandoning his son but come on enough is enough. He owes like $16,000 and even though he doesn't pay it, I am still responsible for making sure Jake has everything he needs. I know a lot of guys bitch about having the child support money they give women being spent on themselves but if you think about it, who's to say the $20 SHE took from her wallet to buy the child shoes wasn't money she was going to use for something she needed so when the child support comes in she uses $20 of that for what she originally needed. Its a thought going through my head right now b/c that used to be something he bitched about from his first baby mama. But it's amazing that he owes me enough money that i would be completely set for a year at least with taking care of everything. It's insane and i have no idea what to do about it.
Love Always,
Nickie

So What Makes It Official?

What makes a relationship official? is it words? Actions? feelings? amount of time?
I don't have the answer to that but it intrigues me because everybody is so set on having a title. Love Always,
Nickie

There's A Guy

So there's this guy n i kinda like him. He's 2 years younger than me but it's okay. He's a complete hidden sweetheart. He's so funny, sweet, thoughtful, caring (in the guyish way of course), Cute in a scruffy way, and just makes me so happy. Just wow

Love Always,
Nickie

Why Is He Calling?

The last time Dave called was in the first week of January. Now out of the blue, i get 2 calls from him 2 days in a row. I'm just not sure why he's calling. I'm not even sure where he's calling from. The first day he hung up as soon as my brother picked up the phone, probably b/c he heard a guy's voice answer the phone. And yesterday we weren't home when he called. I am picking up the peices of my life and finally moving on socially and he starts calling again. I guess i'm just wondering WHY IS HE CALLING ME??
Love Always,
Nickie

just checkin in

Hey I'm just letting everyone know what's been going on with me. I'm been chilling ever since i lost my job. I'm watching some kids to help pay the bills and I got a few roomates now. My girl sam, my brother Zach, and his friend Steve is stayin here too. It's been fun and interesting too. Jake's surgery went fine but i think he's getting a cold or something from school. that's tons of fun not. i need to do laundry AND go grocery shopping!!!! ugh lack of money SUCKS ASS!!!! I still haven't gotten my paycheck which i should've gotten LAST THURSDAY!!!!!! Fuckin sucks!!!!
Love Always,
Nickie